After Life

Her mind somehow wanders to where you lay,
Deep in the ground most would say,

But she knows different,
You are there with her,

Just quiet barely audilble,
Like a cats quiet purr,

When you left it cut her deep,
You can see it in her face,
even as she sleeps,

She tries to ignore the way she feels,
But that kind of pain won't ever heal.

Hurt
Sing to the moon,
A mask of gloom,

Writing a song,
Takes way to long,

Flying away,
Take me away,
Take me into a brighter day,

I'm sick of this doom,
I'm gonna lose,
Just leave me alone,
You've left your bruise.

Mk off 2 the FFA meeting and the orch meeting, which just happen 2 be at the same time!!! so i gotta go 2 both, miss some of both, but watever, that ok it'll be cool!!! - Taylor

knotch is so good

well the title only goes with the end.
so, school is boring, i got homework the 1st day, but watever, it wasn't alot. all my teacher are pretty cool 2, which is good. um, my schedule is good 2!!! orch. health ed :( algebra then biology. biology is by far the most boring subject, but the class is fun anyway, cool people in there. some are moronic, but watever, i had them in class for 3 years, and 1 more ha\our and a half for 1 semester wont kill me. i dont think anyway, lol. i'm just kidding. so now for the title to kick in
i was riding dolly and purposfully pissing knotch off. and wen dolly wouldnt follow him he would run around bucking and getting mad, so for about 20 minutes i took dolly and put her but facing him, becuz in horse talk thats like shunning him, knotch was NOT happy about it, so ye kicked and bucked and reared and tried everything 2 get her attention, but since i was in control, he got none, finally i walked off and he followed!!! :) go me and dolly right?!!! anyway of course i was on bareback and all, so running around was so fun, we raced a car, we also lost, but she's 28, wat did u expect?! but it was so fun anywho, so i fed them and spent about 45 min. with the nervous reck of a horse that just happens 2 be mine and called Knotch. i decided 2 get on, but i didnt want 2 tack up, so i put his bridle on and rode him bareback. now when i say that, please realize that this is a high risk for my health, and my life!!! bucuz last time i rode him bareback, he bucked me off, time b4 that he bucked me off time b4 that, he tried but only half heartedly, time b4 that he threw me in2 a fence, and the time b4 the time i rode him last with a saddle he threw me, and not 2 brag, but that takes effort!!! hes the 1st horse who has thrown me in a western saddle, and i've been riding 9 years, and ridden some crazy horses. back 2 2day, knotch was an absolute ANGEL!!!we walked and trotted without a problem, but i didnt want 2 push it right after a that big 20- 30 min. fit so i got off. it was an awesome day!!! love u knotch and dolly!!! parker- i miss u honey!!! thats my baby bty, well he's my dog, but he stays at my dads house, and i'm with my mom right now, have'nt seen him in a while :( miss u!!! anyway going 2 bed nite everybody!!!

Gift From Above

so, some of u no i'm not christian. and if u are i respect u for it. but i tend to write and it come out like i am a christian, so i thot i should just say it, i'm not a true one. i sorta believe in him, but i'm not sure, and i have 2 many doubts to say that i'm a christian. so now that thats said and done, here is my poem

You make me smile in the saddest of days,
And you make me laugh when I’m crying,
You brought me out of my darkest haze,
And taught me to live when I was dying,

I love you with all my heart,
This feeling will never die,
I’ve loved you from the very start,
I’ll never say goodbye,

To you I owe my soul,
And all of my love,
You make me whole,
My gift from above.

Just Because

i know i havent posted much poetry lately, but i just made one up. so here it is, its not that good, but who cares right??? tell me wat u think. and don't be shy, tell me if u hate it please, i truly want 2 no.

Snow covered river,
Why is he dead?
The thought makes me shiver,
It sticks in my head,

He drown in the cold,
With no help for him,
With nothing to hold,
And to weak to swim,

He died in pain,
Without a goodbye,
No need to explain,
And no need to cry,

Like he would say,
“Its just life child,
“It’ll be okay,
Its just one day,”

Your misery will end,
It always does,
Your heart will mend,
Just because.

- Taylor Tot

not much 2 say...

i don't have much 2 say. um, last night i was with knotch and there were some deer in the pasture. i hooked the rope 2 his halter while he ate, and a deer jumped the fence. he took off at a full run around our pasture. i got on Dolly bare back. and it was really fun cuz, in order 2 get him 2 stop, i had 2 keep him mind focused on something else, so me and dolls herded him around the arena. finally by some luck we cut him off the same second he stepped on the lead rope, so he stopped and i swung off and got him calmed down, it took about 20 min. of herding 2 get him 2 stop. but it reminded me how much i just love riding, and its not all about drills, but more being in tune with the horse, and dolly is the only horse i've ever truly felt that way on. going on 9 years of being riding partners. and wen i was up on dolly bareback, full out running with knotch, it was like me and dolly were connected and the 3 of us were a team. it was the best. and as soon as dolly knew wat she was suppost 2 do, her old cutting training kicked in, and it felt like we were... almost flying. i no it sounds ridiculous, but 4 those of u who have ever really connected with somebody or something, i mean really connected, u understand me. dolly is probly the only horse i'll ever really connect like this with, to bad shes 28, not much longer til... nvm, heading out 2 the barn now, l8ter ya'll

more quizes....

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate
You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.


What Your Favorite Color Black Says About You:
Timeless --- Stylish --- SophisticatedOverpowering --- Intimidating --- DominantPerfectionist --- Controlling --- Competent



Your Blog Should Be Purple
You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.


You Are an "A-OK"
Your life philosophy can be summed up as, "Whatever will be, will be." Your greatest wish is to live each day a little better than the next.You are naturally calm and stable. Some people would call you a rock.You feel one with the world. You are a spiritual person, though no one who knows you would guess it.


Your Attention Span is Medium
Your attention span is just about average.You may think that you have a short attention span...But being distracted is something most people struggle with.The most important thing is that you're aware that your mind wanders.If you find yourself daydreaming, you can usually snap out of it.It may be tough to concentrate at times, but you can do it... if you want to!




What Your Taste in Music Says About You
Your musical tastes are intense and rebellious.You are intelligent... but in a very unconventional way.You are curious about the world. You love doing something new.In fact, you enjoy taking risks and doing things most people would shy away from.You are very physical. It's likely that you're athletic, but not into team sports.You have the soul of an artist. Beauty and harmony are important to you.


You Are a Realist
You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.


Your Spelling is Okay
You got 5/10 correct.Your spelling is a bit of a problem. Your instincts on how to spell things aren't horrible, but you often make an embarrassing mistake or two.

You Are a Dash
Your life is fast paced and varied. You are realistic, down to earth, and very honest.You're often busy doing something interesting, and what you do changes quickly.You have many facets to your personality, and you connect them together well.You have a ton of interests. While some of them are a bit offbeat, they all tie together well.You friends rely on you to bring novelty and excitement to their lives.(And while you're the most interesting person they know, they can't help feeling like they don't know you well.)You excel in: Anything to do with moneyYou get along best with: the Exclamation Point


What Taylor Means
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.


You Could Be a Vampire... If You Had To
Like most people, the thought of being a vampire has crossed your mind. But you're not sure if you'd do it, even if you could.Living forever doesn't sound half bad, if you could live forever with the people you love the most. But do vampires even love? And would the vampire version of you even be you?It's all too much to contemplate. Luckily, the chances of you ever becoming a vampire are astronomically low.What you would like best about being a vampire: Living foreverWhat you would like least about being a vampire: Blood stained teeth


Your Anti Climactic Fortune
Deep into your future, I forsee: A high five


You Are Ugly Underwear!
Comfortable and soft, more people like you than let on.But it's very difficult for you to show yourself in public.

You Are Impact
You are very unique and quite striking. You are forceful and aggressive.You never go unnoticed, and people recognize your power instantly.While you make your presence known, your message is a bit fuzzy.You are not the easiest person to understand, and you're not one for details.

ok the last one is not me at all, but watever i like quizzes, but sometimes they're hard, cuz u don't no how 2 describe urself, idk anywayz, ok, its the 3rd day after the fall, and HOLY CRAP!!!! i'm in MAJOR pain!!!! ugh!!! but the 3rd day is always the worst, but jeez, this is the worst i've ever had it, just siiting hurts, moving, leaning, standing, pretty much EVERYTHING!!! ugh watever, cross ur fingers its better 2morrow!!! i no i am!!! and everything else i can cross without hurting myself more, that will give me good luck!!!

Quizes!!!!!

Your Independence Level: High

You are extremely self reliant and autonomous.You are definitely into doing your own thing.But you also wouldn't turn down help if you needed it.You follow your own path, but you don't do so blindly.


Moose = you are a good swimmer and is comfortable near bodies of water. You like spending time with your friends but you're silent and contemplative as well. You find dawn and dusks to be the most beautiful time of the day.

You throw tempers quikly, thats from another quiz.

so idk y i put this on, but i saw somethin like this on my bff's blog, and i'm bored and its 7:30 AM
so ya. kenna i blame you for my not sleeping, and waking up at 6:15!!!!! AM people AM!!!!

OUCH!!!

so to put it sraight i got bucked off knotch 2day. i was in a western saddle!!! thats the 1st time i've been thrown from 1!!! and he bucks all the time, but not like this, we were in a pattern and he bucked, lunged, and bucked again, then i fell wen he was about 2 land cuz he bucked and longed off the ground, and if i didnt puch off he woulda dragged me, and since i was falling anyway i pushed off and landed in the mud, (it was raining, has been all week) and i scraped my elbow :( i'm not mad at him, it was no big deal, i'm just scared my mom wont let me ride by myself anymore, i mean u guys no that this was the first time i hurt myself wen somebody was there, i never fall wen i'm with somebody!!! i don't get that!!! bad luck i guess, he's only given me 2 concussions, but thrown my 3 times, well 4 now, i've only had him a year, but only 1 time, 2day has somebody been there. i guess that means i've fallen 8 times, thats not much, jeez i'm lucky. i've been riding almost 9 years so... thats pretty good!!! just got bad luck with wen i fall, this is mainly 2 Kenna, cuz our texts don't get 2 each other anymore cuz my fones broken :( but 4 u who read it, tell me wat u think!!! i'm gonna be so sore 2morrow!!!

Help me!!!

my new book ya'll!!! i started writing it!!! and guess wat?!!! i need help!!! if u don't live in the US or used 2 live outside the US, or know alot about wat its like in other counties, please tell me wat its like!!! please please please!!! my new book is about a girl named Missy Zingly. don't ask about the last name please, i don't no y thats wat it is, i just wanted 2 get on with the story, if u have a suggestion, take it away!!! just tell me!!! anyway she's been movng around her whole life, Australia, Ireland, Africa, now she lives in England, and shes fights with her parents about moving, cuz she wants to live in a HOME not a house, she wants friends, and for once she doesnt want to be the new kid from some other country, and for my writing sake and for my sanity they move to the US, she meets new people, gets a boyfreind, and is enjoying herself and all is well, she finds out something weird about the town, and about her family i guess, not exactly sure wat the big thing that happens in the book is yet, cuz i just started not long ago, like 2day, 2nite. so tell me wat u think wat u no, and wat u want her last name 2 be, please!!! i really like where this book is going, and i'm not ready for it 2 die, help me keep it alive!!! please!!!

TAG!!!

No Lying QuizLasts:10 min

1. Last beverage: Sprite
2.Last phone call: Kenna
3.Last text message: Kenna
4.Last cd played: MUSE!!!
5.Last BUBBLE bath:ugh ewww!!! bubbles???
6. Last hug: don't like being touched much
7.Have you ever Dated someone twice: ugh no
8. Have you ever been cheated on: no
9. Last vacation: um does a weekend away count???
10.Have you ever fallen in love: nope
11.Have you ever lost someone special: alot :(
12.Have you ever Been depressed: once
13. Have you ever been drunk and threw up: ugh no...
14.List 5 people you can tell anything to: Kenna, Lauren thats pretty much it
15.List your favorite colors: BLACK!!! BLACK!!! RED ROAN!!!
Have you:
1. Laughed: just lie 2 seconds ago
2. Met someone who changed your life? many
3. Found out who your true friends are? ya
4. Wanted to lower the drinking age? yes
5. Gay, Straight, or Bi? straight
6. Who is the best hugger that you know? DONT LIKE BEING TOUCHED!!!
7. Do you believe in Love at first sight? a girl can dream!!!
8. Is there something you want to tell someone? yup!!!
9. Brand of shirt you are wearing? ugh... brand???
10. How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? on wat??? here??? like 2 lol
11. How many kids do you want to have? no idea... do horses count?? dogs??? cats???
12. Do you have any pets? 7
13. Do you wanna change your name? nope. cant picture me as anything else
14. What did you do for your last birthday? um nothin'
15. What time did you wake up today? 6:29 exactly
16.What were you doing at midnight last night?sleeping i believe
17.Last time you saw your mother? ugh, 10 min.
18. What are you listening to right now? MUSE!!!
19. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? all the time!!!
20. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yup :( not all bad tho!!!
21. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? um shoes, cuz up until yesterday i only had 1 pair!!!! not my fault!!! they were my riding boots!!!
22. Who's getting on your nerves right now? nobody!!! :)
23.Most visited webpage? ugh, hmm must be Karl Halliday i think either him or Kenna, maybe Tuesday
24. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi!!!
25. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past month? nope!!! single!!! always have been *rolls eyes and shakes head smiling*

hmm, scary

i was riding Knotch 2day. he fell, we were running and he fell. on his knees. ran on his knees and jumped back up. niether of us were seriously hurt, just a little shakin, for him, cuz he fell, for me... i had a flashback. 2 years ago i was riding dolly by myself, and she fell on my leg, no serious injuries, but since i was by myself... and it hurt... doll was hurt... i was scared. and so now i can't stop thinking about it, or zena. and my incedent with her, huuuu, sry, my posts lately have all been about horses, but i dont have much else 2 say...UNTIL NOW!!! i have another idea for a book!!! i know 3 at a time is alot, but i'm 2 excited. i was reading Tuesday's blog, and i'm using some of wats really happened and happening 2 her!!! so thank you so much Tuesday!!!

RAIN!!!

ok so 2day i had plans 2 ride with my friend, her name is Taylor 2!!!!! weird right??? anyway, so i got up at 6 15 and it was raining so i txted her and we both agreed not to ride. well, i had 2 feed the horses anyway. i walked down there, its only a 1/4 of a mile i think, so it only takes a little bit. its a great walk in the morning, very calm, horses are always out 2, so its pretty. as soon as i got 2 the barn it stopped raining!!! i was mad!!! Taylors not comming and it stopped raining!!!! i wanted it 2 rain!!!! we NEED it. if Taylors not comming and now its not raining i'm mad!!! well i decided it didnt matter, we got rain last night. so i fed them, i noticed Dolly(oldest mare, 28 yrs, riding her 4 9 yrs) had a a cut on her, still bleeding and everything. i looked at it and right away could tell Knotch bit her. its not a big bite o anything, bit it'll probly scar. so i disinfected it, and got blood on my hands and it was really sad, it looked like it hurt. right then i was hoping it would rain so i could clean my hands off, but it didnt, so i put this goo on it, suppost 2 stop the bleeding and make it heal faster. so i was done right i was about 2 go rinse my hands off with the hose. but lucky me, it started POORING!!!!! like, i could barely even see!!! knotch and dolly took off for the barn. but i didnt want 2 go all the way over there. so i climbed into my 2 horse trailers tack room, which is tiny, and packed with ALL my equipment, vet supplies, and a whole bunch of stuff!!! i barely fit, and on top of that i was 2 tall 2 stand up all the way!!! i'm only 5'5!!! jeez!!! how small can you make a horse trailer!!! anyway, i called my mom 2 come get me 2 times with no answer, so i got out, and by that time i was soaked, but i was gonna walk home anyway, so it didnt really matter, but there the truck is!!! i ran to the gate!!! which was totally pointless, but i was happy. and i got in the car, and here i am now, about 45 min. later, waiting 4 my best friend 2 get online so we can do that awesome chat thing that she just showed my, but she had 2 get her new colt Buster out of the rain, so shes not on yet. but guess wat!!!! my hands r clean!!!! i like washed them a bogillian times, and then i washed them in the shower, and wen i got out and than was the last time. but anyway, this is my lame story of wat happened 2 me already and its like only 9!!!

i'm excited, but not really

ok start out with some REALLY good news. Knotch. Did. Freakin. Awesome. Yesterday!!!! the best he's done since i got him!!!!!!! we did key hole, spur, baseball, side passing, 180s 360s he did it all!!! here is the bigg suprise!!! dun dun dun... he LOPED th poles 4 the first time ever!!!! lead changes and all!!!! he ran in baseball and i got it in and ran straight barrels!!!!!!!!!! 4 those of u that no about Knotch, even a little bit, u no how big a deal this is, its just wat i needed going in2 high school rodeo 2gether. there are no words for how happy i was!!! and the sunday b4 that, somebody was cutting down trees!!! LOUDLY!!! and crap was falling all over the place right next 2 us, like on the other side of the fence, and not 1 time did he freak!!! now that i told you all the good, explain this 2 me, after all that, i gave a bath with soap and everything and guess wat!!! HE. GOT. SCARED. OF. THE. SOAP!!!! i could have screamed so loud!!! i was mad!!! so mad that i was laughing so hard i started CRYING!!! so like... o my god, it was so funny, then i had 2 get it off him... ha, u shoulda been there Kenna. i dont no wat 2 do with him...

on another not school starts in less than 2 weeks!!! thats wat the title is 4. not excited bout school but rodeo, kenna? guess wat, i'm gonna work the Black and Blue!!! and ur gonna be in it!!! u dont have a choice!!! sunday or not!!! anyway g2g ride!!! maybe i'll give Knotch another bath... lol

My Dolly

ok so this poem is about my horse Dolly,i've known her for almost 9 years, been riding her for 8. she is the best horse EVER i love her so much!!! so i wrote this about her. its not that good but thats ok, watever. so here goes

A heart of gold,
So pure and sweet,
I grab a hold,
And take a seat,

You make me whole,
My beautiful mare,
You carry my soul,
We are a pair,

You glide along,
And carry me well,
A beautiful song,
Your hoof beats tell.

heres another 1.


Darkness surrounds me,
Like a blanket of calm,
Helping me see,
A sweet loving song,

I carry it with me,
Where ever I go,
My secret key,
To loving you so,

Without you,
The light is gone,
I welcome the dark,
A sweet loving song,

It takes my aching for you away,
So I can see,
It gets me through the day,
Letting me be,

I need you here,
My true love,
My sweet dear,
We fit like a glove.

i hoped you enjoyed them!!!- Taylor Tot

weird

ok i totally got inspired by absolutly nothing!!! i dont no where this came from, its not awesome, but i personally think its better that the other 2, the 2 that sucked, well ya anyway, this is sad, about 2 people who loved and 1 dies, but the other still feels them there, and they will be with the other forever, because love never dies. well, thats how i think of this poem, tell me wat u think!!!

A single tear falls,
Breaking on the ground,
The whisper of his voice calls,
It’s a glorious sound,

I realize he’s gone,
Never to return,
My memory of him forgone,
Yet for him I yearn,

My eyes are dead,
I feel so numb,
My heart is in shreds,
A pain I can’t overcome,

There is his voice,
His soothing voice like a song,
I had no choice,
Its with him that I belong,

I close my eyes,
And drift away,
To where my love never dies,
Forever he leads my way

GRRRRRRR!!!

grrr is my new word/sound, i say it all the time now. idk y!!! ok i still am just SO uninspired, being uninspired sucks!!! i feel so... so, well, unispired. and i find it hard 2 no wat 2 write about here now 2, i just dont get it!!! um let me think, um ok heres something.

i'm going 2 a family reunion 2morrow morning, so 2morrow and the next day i dont no if i'll be on, i dont think they have internet, but sunday nite i should have something good 2 write about,. and if i dont, i wouldnt be suprised, but watever thats fine, i gotta go- Taylor Tot

been a while

it has been so long since i've sat at a computer trying 2 write a poem and i'm just so uninspired!!! its weird, then i came here and i'm like, 'wat do i say?' again uninspired!!! i really don't know wat 2 say so i'm gonna put up some of the worste poetry that i'm truly embarrased 2 put on, but i got nothin else, u'll be able 2 see i had no idea wat 2 write.

You tore out my heart,
You ripped me apart,

Look into my world,
See what I see,
What I am unfurled,
See why I plea,

I’m dead inside,
I’m dead inside,
Its over,
I’m gone.



I run the red light,
Who cares about that?
It’s been a tough night,
I don’t want to chat,

I drive reckless and free,
Who cares about that?
Let me be me,
I don’t want to chat,

I’m leery and tired,
Who cares about that?
I’m so uninspired,
I don’t want to chat.


c, terrible unispired poetry!!! u can tell me how bad it is, i know, it sucks!!! maybe i'll be inspired if u tell me i suck, i dont know, maybe worth a try i guess

A pengelum

please exuse my spelling during this.

i was reading somebody elses blog and it talked about violence in the world, about the nazis and such. well i'm going 2 give my opinion on some things.

i think that our country, every country actually, is like a pengelum. in the sense of politics, war, stuff like that. its hard 2 explain, so tell me if i don't make sense.

wen our country makes a decision about... lets say, if we want 2 be a democratic or republican nation, our opinions are greatly swayed by our current situation. which is by no means a bad thing. but wen we make a decision, we can't seem 2 stick with it, after a little, we get sick of being one way or the other. a good example of this would be war. not long ago werent we all wanting 2 go 2 war?!!! well not all of us, but alot were. now that we got wat we wanted in the 1st place, wat do we do? complain about how Bush didnt make the right decision and that we dont want another republican president because we want out of this war. THE 1 WE WANTED!!!! so as u see. wen the pengelum swings one way it stays there, but only 4 a little, then it swings 2 the other side. just like the opinions of our world.

i would love 2 hear your thought on this matter- Taylor Tot

yayayayayayay!!!!

BREAKING DAWN PARTAY!!!!
i am sososososososososossososososososossoso excited!!! nananabooboo!!!! i'm gonna finnish b4 u victoria!!!! haha sry u guys i've just always wanted 2 say that, aparently i like making myself look stupid 2 others. but thats ok, watever. i'm sosososososossosososossososososososososososooooooooooooooooooooo......... Happy, Excited, Joyfull, happy happy happy!!!! in 9 hour i get my BREAKING DAWN BOOK!!!! yayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayay and 4 those of u who dont get the whole yayayayayayayayayayayayayay thing... ur stupid... i'm just kidding u no i luv ya!!! i'm just saying yay relly fast over and over again but if it ever ends with an a i'm sayng ya over and over, comprehindo??? yayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayaayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!! I AM SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO EXCITED!!!! ANYBODY ELSE?!!!!!