i believe her now

some1 once told me something that i thought was rediculous, but now i realize she knew more about me than i did. she told me "your joy is you sorrow unmasked" i didnt get it, until now, and then... at the time she told me, i had no idea wat she meant , now i do. i act happy in order 2 fool people in2 thinking that i'm ok, but i'm not!!! i'm NOT ok, but in a wierd way, it... ok. i no this post doesnt make that much sense, but it makes perfect sense 2 me and i needed 2 say it, tell it 2 somebody, anybody- Taylor Tot

white yet dark

don't really like this poem much, but i wrote it, so i decided 2 put it up anyway.

It came in a letter,
White yet dark,
This won’t ever get better,
Its left a permanent mark,

Stabbing your heart,
Again and again,
It rips you apart,
It always wins in the end,

A heartless fiend,
Killing at all costs,
Nobody intervened,
Now all is lost,

My death is now,
I don’t really mind,
Its something I can allow,
Now I wont be confined.


ok so i like this 1, its happy my first happy poem!!!! inspired by the song Your guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus


I will be there for you,
I’ll always care for you,
I’ll never let you fall,
My little baby doll,

I’ll love you forever,
You make me better,

Be there for me,
And I’ll be there for you,
Come and see,
If only you knew,

My love for you is strong,
It’ll never go wrong,
I’ll get you through the hardest parts,
Before the pain ever starts,

Follow me,
I know the way,
Come and see,
It’ll be okay.

Never The Same

I don’t understand,
I don’t know why,
This wasn’t planned,
Please just don’t die,

Stop and think,
Is this what you want?
It’s like permanent ink,
This isn’t nonchalant,

It could be over soon,
Its not a game,
No silly cartoon,
You’ll never be the same.

I hope u enjoyed this poem, i no most of mine are kinda depressing, but thanx 4 all u guys who comment and read them, it means alot.

www.thunderhawk.org

for those of you like me. ur fascinated by animals, i love horses, but i can't help but want 2 do more, so many people work with horses, and i hope 2 always be 1 of those people. but i feel like i should do more, if you havent been 2 this website u need 2 go, tigers, 2 me are the most amazing creatures, i like white bangal tigers, but the one spesifically on this site that i think is just the most beautiful animal i have ever seen is named Iyotaka Tatanka, u cant describe him in words, but you really need 2 look at all of the cats, i look on google and search all the sites but this one in particular captured my attention, the website is the title 4 this entry but i'll type it again... www.thunderhawk.org

ITS REALLY 2 JL(JOEL)

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!! ok so i got up at 5 15 AM, which wasnt 2 bad, i only got about 5 hours sleep, but thats ok cuz i got up 2 ride. well i just got done riding!!! and its alomost THREE!!!!! i'm gonna be sososososo sore 2morrow!!! AND OMG Knotch ROCKS @ flyin' W, he was awesome, and he isnt even pattered yet, wish that it was a rodeo event! but they do have it at the Saddle Clubs Playdays so thats good!!! but anyway i have 2 go 2 my dads soon so i gotta get ready, ttyl

I've been tagged...

what ya do is list five (mildly interesting) things bout yourself and then tag 5 more people. i have no idea who i'm gonna tag, so i'm gonna go through my comments...

1. inside jokes 4 JL (pronounced JOEL), my bff JL kalls me Talylor (pronounced Tally lore).
2. dot dot dot is 1 of my new fav. sayings
3. i dont remember anything about 2 whole years of my life
4. i stare in2 space alot and just, well... space out all the time
5. i laugh 4 absolutely no reason.

random poems that r really just thots

I just don't remember,
I don't want to remember,
its just to hard,
its why i fell apart,
it shredded my heart.



my heart is not whole,
it contains giant gaps,
i have no more soul,
i am empty.



my only complete poem from last night.

One dark sleepless night,
I lay awake with fear,
My brain set replaying that terrinble sight,
As my eyes overflow with tears,

I always thought I had to be strong,
And I succeded until now,
But I held everything in to long,
So I lay crying now,

My memory was erased,
Nothing from two whole years,
My memories locked away and safely cased,
So now I lay, overflowing with these tears,

its an unusual feeling,
I didn't understand it at first,
But now I realize i'm finally healing,
And I really never was cursed.